Going mad? ?

Hey guys

So im 25 ttc for 3 yrs. Chlomid for 12months with 4 pregnancies all mc by week 8, another 4 mc since going off chlomid but never going past week 6.

No one seems to know why? Have had all the tests under the sun and it shows everything as normal.

And to top it off. Bff is pregnant, accidental honeymoon baby! ! Was on the pill (but forgot one dose!) Super happy for her but soooo green with envy.

How do you not go mad with jealoysy, want and defeat??

Fingers crossed for everyone