Best decision I've made in my pregnancy (long)

I made three big decisions during my pregnancy that changed everything for me. 

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1. I decided to keep my baby. 

Everyone thought if I ever DID get pregnant, I would either have a chemical pregnancy or a miscarriage.  I was on extensive medication and have many diagnosed mental health problems that have also caused physical health problems. When I found out I was pregnant, my therapist, physiatrist, doctors, and every other person with a medical opinion told me I would become very sick, have numerous complications, have to be on bed rest, and even die if I didn't have an abortion. I refused the abortion and was hugely supported....except by the family of my baby's father. Some of you know this because I've mentioned it in other posts, but when told I was keeping the baby, my SO's mother, the GRANDMOTHER of my child, said, "Ew, you mean she won't get rid of it?! Convince her to get rid of it. I don't care." She then proceeded to stomp and cry about how embarrassed she was for me since I had decided to keep the baby. To my knowledge, she hasn't changed her opinion and continues to complain that I won't "get rid" of my baby. Since deciding to keep my baby, my health has IMPROVED, I am emotionally stable, have been taken off of high risk precautions, and found out I'm having a healthy little boy.💙

This doesn't seem like a big deal, unless you know the medications and their doses. The meds I was on were all Class C, dangerous for pregnancy. I took 4 medications and all the doses were ridiculously high. I was told that coming off so quickly, once again, could kill me. Because I was willing to face the physical and mental challenges of getting of the meds for the health of my baby and because I already felt such love for my baby, I came off the meds in a week. Clearly, I am still alive, but coming off the meds actually fixed so many problems. As I said earlier, my emotional/mental health improved beyond what I ever thought was possible. I feel fantastic and didn't have withdrawals from the meds. I don't know how; I can only chalk it up to a miracle.

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3. Finally, leaving my baby's father.

Some of you know about this as well. The other one responsible for this baby couldn't rise to the occasion. It caused me so much pain and stress for the first five months of my pregnancy and I was miserable. He refused to get a job, refused to come help prepare for the baby, wouldn't tell any of his family about the baby, and couldn't take care of himself without his mother holding his hand through everything. I needed someone to help and support me, but how could he help me if he can't even make his own sandwich? (Not exaggerating by the way). After ending it with him, he was very clingy to me. I tried to maintain a civil relationship with him, but he couldn't keep his distance. I mean that very literally. He was always trying to hug me, kiss me, and didn't listen when I told him no. He also would try to pressure me into having sex. It was all he cared about, the physical affection. There were so many more issues I had with him, but long story short, I'm so much happier now and so much less stressed. Yes, I still have hormonal mood swings, cry, and get stressed over absolutely nothing, but I do feel better.

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So, to anyone who read this, thank you and the best decision I think anyone can make is deciding to pursue happiness.