Cycle # 24+ TTC AF:Nov 19 25d cycles REALLY NEED a buddy

So I am looking for a cycle buddy or even a few for a support network. Long story short...I am 30 years old, AF first visited when I was 9. I have 2 beautiful sons, both conceived when I was young, ages 13 & 10. I conceived baby #3 3 years ago and lost it at week #11. Since that miscarriage, I have had 0 luck with TTC :(.

I have a very hard time dealing with my infertility issues, but glow has helped me come miles. Some months are easier than others for me and I am starting to think if I found a cycle buddy, or buddies, that might also be going through a similar struggle, that it would help me with coping with the ups and downs...

I do try to prepare myself that I may never have more children and don't get me wrong I am very thankful for the two I have, it's just that I was young when I had them, they are getting older, now that my partner and I of 6 years wanted to expand our family we have had to go through some tough times. I do suffer from depression and I am hard on myself because he has no children of his own, and I feel like as a woman, I should be able to give him that gift and honestly I sometimes worry about what if I can't, that he may leave me one day (not that he has ever indicated such) it's just a inside worry....

So what I have do know/have tried:

We have tested his swimmers and he is not our issue..

Neither of us suffer from any std that may prevent conception

I do not have prediabetes or issues with my blood pressure

My thyroid is tested and good

I have customized my diet to be healthy and friendly for conception as well as taking prenatal multivitamins daily

I see a counselor to keep stress and depression minimal

I have started using ovulation predictors to see if it indicates a LH surge

I recently received a referral from my primary care to a ob gyn for further fertility speciality treatment

And lastly, I know that I have shed about 252,000 of my eggs, and that there is a good chance I could be getting close to the end of my pool...

SO, I have had a struggle, I do have some infertility baggage as you can see, but I am a very sweet loving person who is looking for someone who might be having similar battles. I am positive about not giving up hope and I will continue to wait eagerly each month until I see that special line. I hate continually talking to my partner about it , or holding things in, plus maybe we have tips for each other and at the very least we could both know that there is someone else out there feeling the same pains that we can have hope and support for...

Thanks Everyone for the support and best of luck to all of you!!!

-Amber