swore we were done

So me and my husband swore we were done trying for baby number 2 if I didn't get my bfp in October. Well I just ended af and me and him both are still talking about TTC almost everyday we talk about it. We both want another baby so bad that getting bfns every month hurts us but the thought of not trying anymore hurts even more. We have been ttc for almost a year with one miscarriage in July. Lots of people say when you stop trying is when it happens but I don't think either one of us wants to really stop.