It all started during my last anternatal

It all started during my last anternatal.

You know that gut feeling a mother has about a child?

That thing that makes u go back to check a baby u left few seconds ago.... only to get there n b full of praises that you followed your guts...

Thats wat happend to me.

I went 2 clinic in Lagos island.... was trying 2 see a doctor i like seeing cos d man can spend 500hours on one case... very patient.

He was not on seat.

Sad i decided to just walk into the chief condultants office.

I got guts like dat....

He welcomed me n i told him my fears... he asked 4 my clinic days n said he wasn't my consultant so wouldn't teach my consultant his job...

He told me to see mine n come back if need be. He is elderly n patient.

In tears, i left to see mine next door.

The man just walked me out.

That we would see at the clinic since it was my clinic day.

Dejected with dh in tow.... i cried openly like a kid....

Few minutes later i saw my consultant fully dressed, xtra perfume, fine shoe,  suit n necklace.... he was leaving d premises.... i said haaaa....temi gbami leni ( my own don be)

Somehow i decided to go see d other elderly consultant but was too emotional as i was weak n crying....

Hubby wanted to bundle to Akure immediately where he has mouth...lol 5 to 6 hours journey..... unplanned..... mbanu, i dont do imptomptu especially with travelling.

While i was getting me together, i saw a small doctor come out to say i should come....(lol at small doctor - i have sized them all up)

He led me to a consulting room n i saw my consultant there.

Thing is d msn doesnt knoe my name,  never seen me b4 that day.... hmmm

I sha start down dejected.... n h said u again. I just decided not to coperate again.

I was boiling in my spirit.

That's when he went through my file n asked me wat the problem was, i said sir u have my file n called me 4 a reason. .. he then stylishly apoligized n i opened up.

Thing is 9days ago,  i was at the hospital complaining that Zoey was not moving.

I did numerous scan n all looked fine....or so they said.

I asked 4 cord... n they said none round her neck....her BPP profile read 8.

Dunno if its 8/8 or 8/10.

So on this friday...21-10-2016, i complained same n was asked to do a repeat scan.

Same story... all is well. Hmmmm

The doctor set up his own scan n checked n said all looks fine. He also didnt see a cord.

I told him I wasnt convinced....

How can i be preggy n my baby just tries to move once a day....and they say its 10 movt a day.

He then said... well, she doesn't look distressed either.... n asked wat i wanted.... i said please bring my baby out... she has stayed long enough.... i have heard stories n all they will tell the mothers is they can't explain wat went wrong.

Cant suffer a loss after the years of ttc n d whole 9months.

Heck i was 39w1d according to them n 38w2d according to me.

doctor said no, i have to be 41w3days b4 they can induce....  haaaaaaaaa.

I started rebuking n rejecting the worse as i saw it coming.

He then said or will u do elective cs? And i said why not as long as she is out n alive.

Thats how i was booked.

But mama's,  its not easy abeg.

Another set of crying.... what ifs started.

They wanted to admit me immediately n i refused. Told dem since it was monday i will come that morning.

Standard practise is to be on bed atleast 1night b4 and was advised to come sunday morning or wait one week.... i jumped at d Sunday morning invite n checked in.

All settling down n tests where carried out.

All came out fine.

Monday morning, i saw d consultant again n asked him if the pendiculated fibriod could be removed... he said no. Its not standard practise. I took it in good faith.

Now, why do mamas make CS sound so easy?

Jeez.... i saw hell..... i felt it all.....

People say i was wheeled in n out.... i expected that n got the shocker of my life....

Will post the conclusion if Zoey allows me tonight.... she is already calling.

Continuation.

By 11:10am prepping for surgery started.

All d routine, received spinal injection, bp monitored, hand clipped.... bla bla bla.......

The questions.... carry your leg.... i lifted it so high they were amazed..... carry your leg again.... not to high... then carry your legs again and i said legs? Where r they??? Lol.

By 11:48 actual surgery started.

I becane dizzy, felt like vomiting... begged to have d surgery postponed... but it was too late. Immediately oxygen was mounted, head lifted.... and i became ok.

I felt my doctors touch, and said i can feel your hands o.... he said yes... i know u can.

You Will feel it but wont feel pains. ....  i was so happy.

But then,  i felt every touch..... felt the cleaning.... felt the pressure on my abdomen which was supposed to be the cut.

Felt the busy hands of 2 men working on me n next i heard was....u know its a muscle, hold it here n pull....haaaaaaaa. these men are tearing me apart.

I waited 4 pain, none.... i heard.... ok... hold n pull her out..... hold her hands..... n d next was your baby is out.

Nurse said cord on neck? Doctor said yes, 3 times...round d neck. First and second is too tight!!!

No sound, no sneeze no cough..... nothing..... someone ran off with her.

Then i started running commentary, where is my child?  Is she crying? Is she here? I cant hear her.....

My doctor said, its ok. Your bAby is doing fine. ... i said adonbeliveit till i hear her.... he said she is far away... u cant hear her.....

The tears started... bp that was 117/70 became 160/110.

they started begging me.... madam we need u to be fine.....haaaa... at this point i had removed the clip on my thumb n the heart rate machine read flat...... panic started until they saw the problem.

Then the waist pain started .... i screamed, my waist o.... i was given 5 strong pain relievers while d side effect was that the spinal injection will wear off.

This i found out later....else i woulda managed d waist pain.

Along the line, i heard my baby cry at a distant and kept quiet and they said thats her.... later she started again and was brought to me. The moment i saw her.... i felt alive again.... i just wanted to get off the table. She came out looking like my mother in every way.... even to her hair..... she was crying loudly and i said bring her close let me touch her.

I said Zoey, its ok... mummy is here. Please stop crying... i now know u r fine...... surprisingly, she paused and looked in my direction but her eyes was shut.

She then resumed crying and was taken out of the theater.

 ....I felt all the thugs, pulls.... trying to sew the womb.... Chief Consultant was called in.

He asked my womb b brought out n sewn outside....and asked d status of d fibroid.

My doctor suggested it be removed.

Some1 ran to ask hubby if he signed that whatever n he said no... he only asked for baby to be removed n if possible fibriod....

The pains was hell. I felt the niddle pass through every organ. Every layer.... 7 layers sewn.

The skin was sewn twice... as u cant even see the stiches.... all u see now are treads hanging on both sides.... thats how i know the line to be cleaned.

A total of 2 hours was spent on d surgical table as i started bleeding and needed blood tranfussion right there.

In all I bless God becos without him, i dont know what the story will be.

Thank God Zoey didnt have to go through the stress of labour with me. She even came out with a sign of stress on the right side of her face.

I want to thank all Mamas here.

Y'all great. We started lactating yesterday with 30ml colostrum.

To the remaining preggy mama. May Gòds grace envolpe u and surround you.

May the right decision be taken at every point.

Supernatural pregnancy and delivery.

There would be no crises.

I also pray 4 all TTC mamas.... if God can answer me when i least expected even in my unfaithfulness..... he would surely answer everyone of you.

Hugs...