I want out of this first trimester

I have posted it so many many times. But this first trimester is taking a toll on me. I feel like I don't even know who I am anymore. I go to sleep in a panic and nauseous. I wake up in a panic and nauseous. I literally can't win. Meds is a no for me. I was considering doing it to help the anxiety but I was told baby can have withdrawal when born. I have never suffered so bad with my anxiety. I don't know what to do. I can only take so many baths. Anyone else struggling this bad. I've literally been house bound for four weeks because the anxiety is taking over