husband is still bitter. kind of long but I need to get this out.

My husband wanted a boy so bad. Like to the point where he had a major freak out when we found out we are having a girl. I knew he was disappointed but he was getting used to the idea of being the daddy to a baby girl until tonight. We found out tonight that my EX and his fiancé are having a boy and my husband litterally rolled his eyes and said "of course he is, that bastard." Ok well how about you just be happy we are having a baby at all… two years and two miscarriages later.... thenni started to think back... he has been less than involved... I put her swing and bouncer together. I set up her pack and play. I installed her car seat base. I completely set up her nursey aside from building the crib. He never rubs my belly and he hardly ever talks to her. He has said that when she's born he needs tasks to do around the house like he wants to redo the cabinets in our kitchen and things like that and it's ok because I can take care of the baby. I have no problem with that because that's who I am I want to take care of my baby. Part of the reason I'm leaving my career. But part of me can't help but wonder if he would have been more active in the preparation if she would have been a he and now it worries me that she will never be good enough and nothing she does will never be good enough for him. Then I wonder if we are able to have another baby and it's a boy he will show favoritism to our son... it breaks my heart partly because I was that child. I was never good enough for my parents but my little sister was the golden child and I can't stand the thought of my daughter knowing how that feels.... I'm really hoping that once he sees her and holds her it will all change but I just really don't know...