RANT! I NEED TO VENT
My mother was always emotionally absuive, controlling, manipulative. She'd hit me, punch me, make me feel like crap. My siblings would join in. I suffered complete abuse until 14 when I finally had enough and left to live with my father. She continuously harassed me, called me a bitch on facebook, would cyber stalk me, make me look the one with the problem to all her friends, and finally the court got involved and gave my dad full custody. My grandmother was basically my mom until she died last year. She was my best friend. When I turned 18 I decided to try giving a relationship with her a try. Now I'm pregnant with my first. I told her if my siblings keep treating me like crap, or if she does, they won't be allowed near my child (I won't let my child endure the same thing I did) and she laughed and said she couldn't wait until the baby is actually here so I know what it's really like to be a mother.
I was watching the clip in Fresh Prince when Will tells Uncle Phil that he did everything without his father. I learned how to do makeup and hair on my own. I figured out my period on my own. I went to every single one of my soccer games and watched the other soccer moms on the bench and didn't cry that mine wasn't there. I care for people. I work at a daycare, I care about those little kids with all my heart and make sure they know they're loved. I raised myself to be a respectful woman who doesn't take crap from NO ONE. Every Mother's Day I got through it and celebrated my amazing grandmother. I'm proud of myself. I'm a better person than she'll ever be and just like he said in the quote, "there ain't nothing he could teach me about how to love my kids". My baby might only be in my belly but I'm a mother, and I'll be twice he mother she ever was, I'll be at every single sports game/activity, every mommy/daughter event, every single milestone, first date, all the hairdos before school, the good night kisses and stories, the hugs I never got to recieve...... I will love my baby whoever she turns out to be and act, every single day. I won't miss a single second of my baby's life or ever try to make her feel less than her worth. I don't need you. WE don't need you. Don't tell me SHIT about being a mother!
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