I feel stupid but honestly I can tell he's really down about this and so am I. I'm 18 and a virgin and my boyfriend is 20. We talk a lot about my first time, and almost everytime we talk about sex it gets all serious and one of us ends up being upset. I have bad anxiety and naturally of course I'm nervous as hell about my first time and he wanted to know why so I told him I feel like I won't be good enough and he told me we'd work through it. Then he said he was worried about not "performing" well and nervous that he might go soft so I told him it's okay because I'm almost in the same boat, I don't know if I'll be able to orgasm. I've been masturbating and experimenting for years by myself and I really only ever get off from clitoral stimulation. Fingering does absolutely nothing for me, but a toy is somewhat better.

But this is all just a big "what if". Who knows, it could be an amazing experience and he'll make me climax with no problem. I just don't know what to do, he's always been super self conscious and I keep trying to tell him I won't be upset if I don't orgasm and it's not the end of the world. And that's 100% true, my feelings for him wouldn't change at all. Furthermore I never expected to cum my first time anyways, with anyone. I accepted that a long time ago. Idk if this is just a rant or if anyone has advice that would be great but I'm just super bummed and I have no idea what to do.

I only screenshotted the important parts, these are some of the things he said

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