just needing to vent on a Saturday Night

My husband sister is pregnant and just had a gender reveal party. There are having a boy and my husband really wants a boy. However, we have been trying for 2 &1/2 years and are now on a second round of clomid. I had an ultra sound today at cd11 and my follicle was only 15.4mm. My doc said if this round does not work than he will add injections on top of clomid. I am professional and have to go to work everyday faking that I enjoy my life. I really hate the situation I am in and on top of that everyone is bragging and gloating on his sister. Maybe I should just stop trying and be child-free. I am in agony right now. Never wanted a something so bad in my life. Thanks for listening