I had a miscarriage in September at 6 weeks.... we weren't going to try again immediately, but we got a little carried away and didn't use protection.... then I checked the app and it was the day I was ovulating. Now, I'm 5 days late.... part of me wants to be pregnant so bad, the other part hopes I'm not.... mainly because I don't want to go through another miscarriage.

So I'm avoiding taking a test. Because if I don't know, and I lose it early on, maybe my heart won't break as much? I don't know....

I just needed to vent.