Mother and person. I love my baby with everything I have but this is not what I want I don't know why I feel like this and why I'm not happy, is it just hormones? I don't know. I hope I'm not the only person who feels or has felt this way before...I'm scared I'm going to fail now because it's causing so much depression. Please do not judge me, I cannot help how I'm feeling and I don't know where else to vent as this is very overwhelming for me.