Just have to let this out

I met my old man in feburary started dating in april got engaged in july. We ran away for the weekend to a hell of a concert. Came home from that on august 1st had major surgery on august 4th i had contracted mrsa i had daily wound care and antibiotics galore i found iut on the 22nd of august that i was pregnant so excited it made it through surgery. My surgeron pushed my ultrasound up a week to make sure everything was ok cause the mrsa had flared back up. We went in for our ultrasound in sept 7th found out baby had stopped progressing at 8 weeks 4 days i sould have been 9 weeks 3 days. My flare uo happened the day before the baby stopped progressing. I chose not to set up a d and c that day i went home cried and cried my mom cried with me it was her firsr grand baby. Went for a 1 week follow up scheduled a d and c for the following tuesday i miscarried my first child on 09/18/16 in our local emergency room it was the most painful emotionally and physically thing i have ever went through. We are trying again we want another critter.