CD32 and I can't bring myself to test...

Mariah Lynn • 23 years old, 1 beautiful baby boy, Fiancé Pregnant with baby #2
I'm only 20, TTC 10 months and has never had a cycle longer than 29 days after a miscarriage (July). Hubby and I were so hurt by our loss, we stopped ttc and decided to just not prevent. If it's in Gods plan for us, it'll happen. 
I'm currently 4 days late with no symptoms other than exhaustion. I'm so afraid to test. I want to know but at the same time, I'm in denial. 
Pray for me and send some baby dust my way please 🙏🏽👶🏽✨