I have always had issues with my lady parts. I started menstruating late when I was about 17 and it was very irregular. I would get my period once or twice a year at most. The doctor told me that it would get better as I grew up, it didn't. It took me about 5 years to get pregnant the first time.  I miscarried the first pregnancy this April t months and delivered my baby. I got pregnant again and found out at the end of October. Me and my partner we were so excited and hopeful. I thought I was about 6-7 weeks pregnant and started bleeding this past weekend. I got scared and went to the ER on both days Saturday and Sunday. First they said they weren't sure what was going on either an early miscarriage or it would be fine they sent me home. Second day they said miscarriage or ectopic pregnancy and sent me home.On Monday they did more lab test. Tuesday they called me to go in that they were sure I was having an ectopic pregnancy. They couldn't see where the pregnancy was at but would look at the Fallopian tubes. They did the surgery and found the pregnancy in the right Fallopian tube and I lost the tube. I am now feeling hopeless and that I will never hold in my arms a baby of mine alive. I feel very sad and upset at myself and nothing is going to make it better. I also feel like maybe I should leave my partner this is too much to go through. I just really needed to vent. Please pray for me I am just a mess inside and my body is healing but I honestly don't care anymore. 😭💔