He left me

So me and my fiancee were together for almost 2 years anniversary was 11.29.14 ....but he decided yesterday he was leaving , we have been fighting off and on for a while, I had caught him not wearing his engagement at ring 2 times and he would lie about it to my face... well yesterday he packed his car and just left me with the rent and all the bills we had been trying to have a baby for 6 mnth and I feel like it was a little blessing that it didn't happen.. I was so depressed yesterday when he left and yet he always blames it on me his a narcissistic person and I've come to realize that... I bought a ticket for next day Air fare to Jamaica to see some friends so I'll be flying out today and yes we just broke up yesterday bit he's left me like this before and I feel it's time I get to know me I'm 23 and got with him right before I turned 21 .. I'm so faithful to him and he dosent allow me to have friends or go out so I stay home all the time... he's a server who works weekends so I'm always home. Ladies I'm so nervous and Scarred and I just want to have and be happy... k gotta run time to try to catch an airplane