vent.

I'm pregnant with my first baby and I won't be having a baby shower. I live 14 hours away from my family and the only time we could possibly do it would be at Christmas which is too stressful on people. My husband deploys 2 weeks after the baby is due & now we have to stress about funding everything for this baby. I totally understand the situation but I'm still sad because I thought I would be able to experience this great gender reveal party and baby shower with my family (great as in I would get my entire family in one room). But that won't be happening, nothing new for the baby, everything will be garage sales. I don't get to experience my family being happy for me because the entire side of my husbands family is a nightmare & comes up with dumb excuses for everything(like the fact that they told everyone the baby isn't his anyway, it is). My husband doesn't get to experience any of this either, I am suppose to go to my parents for Christmas and I honestly don't want to do that anymore, everything gets cancelled and I'm trying to do my best to stay positive. I'm jealous of those people who have family and friends who throw things for them, but them the best stuff, & who have in laws who love them. Sorry for the vent, I just had no one to talk to about it with.