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Can't even take this much longer....

I miss working, i miss being able to have my own everything.

Like even though im 33 weeks and 3 days... I have never been this hormonal ever! Seems like since I entered my third trimester, i end up crying and my feelings are so freakin sensitive and usually my feelings aren't this sensitive lol

But I think it's not just this pregnancy, its the fact that when I got pregnant i couldnt work at my job anymore, which means I couldn't afford my house anymore, had to give my car back to the dealership, everything I worked so hard for ever since 2013, just had to stop! And the only option was for me to move with my fiance where he got this job offer, so we moved from texas to missouri, so he could work and we could start getting settled again and me being pregnant And ever since I been here yeah it's not bad bc we got a house together, my fiance got him a car, and i just feel like we switched places, like even tho being a stay home mom right now isn't bad, but im a workaholic and I loved paying for my own stuff and making sure I knew my kids were taken care of, no offense to my fiance, bc he works hard and im very appreciative of that but he has his moments to where he wants to get him what he wants and this is his first time in awhile being able to be the man he wants to be, he has his shit together now, and I've always been the one who never depended on anybody, ive always done everything on my own, thats why I plan after my son is born, go to school and become a dental assistant and start working at a job I know will be stable and take care of bills and etc, my fiance plans on giving me the car bc income tax hes gonna get him a jeep, which is fine, he had to sell his jeep before we moved, so we both have had to make alot of sacrifices! But, it's just stressful, and i know it stresses him out bc when I work and when I need shit i got to do, I get it done, but he just is opposite hes like in no rush and always tells me everything will be fine no matter, and its like getting stuff for our son and I only have 6 weeks left usually by now I would have everything prepared and ready and to put me at ease, and he's just like we'll i gotta pay bills, which we always pay first no matter what, bc thats how i was, but he gets cigs all the time, he even spend $50 almost every week or every two weeks on pot, bc thats his stress reliever and i have nothing against it, but fuck it does take away from our son, and my fiance does his best to make sure i can get what I need and for the baby, but he's just not as worried as I am! He just doesn't understand! Idk, i just cant wait to where we can have two incomes, we both have our own vehicles itll just take alot of stress off him and me. I'm ready to have my independent confidence working attitude back, and to get back to where my appearance was and start these goals i plan to do, while taking care of my newborn son and my 7yr old daughter, im ready to start getting back at the top where I want to be at and be happy again, even tho I am happy im just not completely happy where I'm at in my shoes! I'm hoping after i have my son, these hormones will go away, and i can be myself again!! I just hope things will be okay, it just gets frustrated even when I plans weeks ahead for something and I let my fiance know it's fine, and then when that time comes he bitches at me for it and say im not gonna be able to pay for it or do this and im like seriously!! Ugh. Just blah, its gotten to the point I don't even want to do anything anymore, its just not worth fighting about it...but let's hope things get better.

Sorry for the rant, i jusy really needed to get this off my chest!! :/