High needs sweetheart

My baby is a sweetheart, she's the love of my life.

She's needy, very needy, and she hates naps with a passion. She's 3 months. I am married but my husband is not helpful in the way I need him to be. Yesterday I was on the phone with my mom for 25 mins and he complained the whole time about holding the baby, because his arms hurt. 😡

Anyway. My baby sleeps on me most of the night and she has gas issues so she will start kicking her legs which pushes her up under my chin and then she thrashes her head around so I get hit in the face. Honestly I just want to snap! I have gotten to the point where I beg her to stop even though I know she has no control, I just want her off me, I want her not to touch me, I want her to go away.

I am a horrible mother!!!

I love her with everything and I feel horrible.