Trying for two years, miscarriage last March, and time after time i'm disappointed....i'm done! Everyone around me gets pregnant like it's nothing, people who are drug addicts get pregnant, people who don't want children and oops their pregnant. I'm done! Everyone tells me it'll haopen when it's supposed to, and it's Gods plan, and you aren't given what you can't handle...i'm done! I'm tired of pretending like it's so easy to stay positive when all i'm getting is negative! I'm tired of the rollercoster ride of emotions...I've always dreamed and wanted to be a mom, and to have a family. I'm tired of pretending that my heart isn't completely ripped out every time I test! I'm done! I'm tired of getting my hopes up and reading blogs about how women just stopped trying and thinking about it and they got pregnant...I'm done! I'm not looking for sympathy, i'm not looking for the right words to make me feel better, i'm just done pretending!