14 DPO, AF due today took a test & BFN! I feel hopeless

Mrs.W • TTC #1 for 2 years now! After having an ectopic pregnancy last year so I am hoping my rainbow baby comes this year🌈
I seriously feel very impatient about this. Last time I skipped my period was for two months and I had to take birth control pills to start it l. But that was maybe because I had bled for 30 days then I had to take pills to make the bleeding stop then my period didn't show for two months. Anyways I finally got an ovulation positive on CD17. N I took a test today and it was a BFN. I feel helpless and hopeless I want to give up! 😭😭😭💔💔💔😞😞😞😞