Sick & TIRED!!!😡 RANT!!!!!!

You know what it's a fucking shame that I have to beg my child's for things he needs! Throughout this whole muthafucking pregnancy I've bought also everything he needs. He goes months without checking on my baby to see if he's ok. && by me being the mature Bitch that I am I try not to shut his ass out of his sons life because he's lost 2 sons in the past. Every time I ask him to get something he doesn't come thru. I've been working my ass off. 16hr shifts here and there to make sure I get what I need. I asked this bitch for bottles, more diapers and more 0-3 months onesies ask me have I seen anything??? NO!!! I have less than 30 days until my son is here. Is it wrong for me wanting to have everything organized & put away before time??? I shouldnt have to beg a grown ass man to take care of his responsibilities. I'm too the point where I don't want him at the hospital and my son will not have his last name because he hasn't earned it.Â