Telling family

I'm not sure I even want to tell my family about baby #2.

I am 7 weeks today and I'm so excited to tell everyone but my family. My daughter is 8 months old and they will be 15 months apart. (I am starting later in life and if I want to go for three we need to go bang bang bang lol I'm 35)

With my first pregnancy my one and only sister told me that she can't be happy for me because YOU ARE ONLY GOING TO LOSE THE BABY ANYWAY! I have no idea why she felt this way. But I could not even talk to her during most of the pregnancy. She was down right mean. She was mad that I had a super easy pregnancy and she did not. She was mad because I only gained 17 pounds and she gained 70. Now that my daughter is here we are super close again.

My brother and his wife are having problems trying to conceive. They have been trying for 3 years and I know that they are hurt that I had a baby before them. And I know they will be super hurt that I will have 2 babies before them. I also know I can't revolve my life around other people, and they will come around. I just feel bad.

And then there is my mother who knows everything. I love her but she is just not a nice person! She knows that we are trying and every time she sees me she tells me she "KNOWS I am pregnant" even when I was not. Because I look puffy or real bad. Our my skin looks so bad. She is a real peach.

I had a miscarriage between this one and my last pregnancy. I only told her about it weeks after the loss because I just don't want to hear her I know everything speech. And I got one anyway.

O and due to loss of my last pregnancy (was about 5 weeks along) my sister had a field day with it. Telling me that this will just keep happening to me.

So I just feel like I don't want to tell anyone in my family till I can't hide my baby bump any more. I don't want to feel like it's a secret either. I just don't want the constant telling me what I should and shouldn't be doing or that it's all going to end in devastating sadness. Thanks for reading and this is a pic of my 8 month old just because she makes me smile.