Virgin for my whole life

Hey :)
Okay so i know that i am so freaking tight down there that my finger will not even fit. how sad is that lmao and so this is why i am convinced that i will be a virgin my whole life, i'm so scared that it's gonna hurt like a bitch so what do i do???!!.
Also -
I am scared to lose my virginity and have sex because isn't it awkward? how do you start everything off, i mean i understand foreplay could work but isn't foreplay even awkward at times? 
Thankyou so much!  xx