anniversary reaction :(

The mind is crazy. These last 2 months I haven't been feeling like myself. I've been very depressed and a little angry. I wasn't sure why. And I realized today that my abortion anniversary is next week. It's been 8 years and I still have that anniversary reaction. I went through therapy and I'm fine. I understand that I did what I had to do, what was best at that time. But it's crazy and unbelievable to me that I still get that anniversary reaction. I feel alone bc I can't share this with my current boyfriend. He knows I had an abortion 8 years ago (with a different guy) but I've never had any deep conversations with him about it and I don't think it'd be appropriate. Anyway just thought I'd share here since I can't with him. I hope I start feeling like myself again. I hate feeling this way. And it's crazy that I'd have a 7 year old now had I not terminated :( I can't imagine. Okay done.