Maternity Memories SAD RANT

I have barely any pictures of my pregnancy and I'm due with my daughter in 7 weeks. im a single mom living in my own and it's so depressing I have no photographs of the most exciting and happiest part of my life. ands it's pretty much too late to start now. I also wanted boudoir photos but I still have so much to buy and I will absolutely not have the money for it. heck I don't even have regular photos.. I feel like I also let me daughter down because she will eventually see that I haven't preserved this experience as much as I could of. it's just so tight for money and I'm self conscious too so that doesn't help. 😔 all i wanted was some pretty maternity pictures of my tummy............ can't stop crying and can't sleep right now, ugh.. pregnancy photos have been a dream my teenage years and I honestly never thought I'd even have kids and now it's almost over.. crazy all over the place rant but my thoughts are eating me alive.. gonna sleep so my daughter can't feel my saddness at the moment.. help me. I can't even take un professional photos because I think I'm too ugly without them professionally edited an can't stand the look of my face never mind hang them in home.. I guess I could try but how ugly I am will eat away at me more then do any good........ ugh.... and I live in Canada and there's couple feet of snow everywhere and snow suits don't help show off my bump.... heartbroken.. why is everything so exspensive I just wanna be a good mom that's all I ask for in life.......