I want a baby
My husband and I have been married almost 2 years. When we first got married, we decided at our one year anniversary we would talk about whether we wanted anymore kids or not. I have one child and he has 5 kids which we have less than part time. They aren't allowed to call me mom (because of the psycho ex wife). At the year mark he wouldn't even discuss it! It's a closed subject according to him.
I do all the cooking, cleaning and taking care of the kids. I want a baby of our own, I want one together. My husband is like "no". It was just fine for him to have 5 kids with a crazy person and it's just fine that I raise his kids. But I'm not allowed to have one of our own. He knows it hurts when they won't/can't call me mom because of the wrath that their mom will bring on them. He claims we are "almost done" his youngest is almost 4!!! We are not almost done! I feel so defeated and hurt. I want a baby. I want something between the two of us. Why is that so hard for him to understand. I love his kids but it's different when they are yours completely. I feel so broken hearted and anytime I see my friends or family members having babies I just feel dead inside. I've tried to not care, but I feel a heavy heart. How can I explain this to Him without sounding like I don't love his kids. I just want a baby together. I mean I'm raising 6 kids (5 which aren't mine)!!!! Why is one baby together too much to ask????
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