parents rant

I love how I'm working 2 jobs, going to school 5 days a week and I'm still not good enough for my parents. What's sickening is that they really don't realize how much their words hurt. It's not about 'constructive criticism' anymore, it's just plain rude. They're both constantly comparing me to my friends and how they're so much more independent and have so much potential. Tonight, my own mother called me "fucking stupid" and says she's in awe of how I'll manage to get through in life. This wasn't the first time, but something about this time made it really fucking hurt. From years of this now, there's so much anger, rage and 'fight' bubbling in me that's been building up and I cannot take any of it anymore. I hate it here. I've always dreamed of leaving this house and doing stuff on my own - or at least with people who I feel actually appreciate me - and I can't wait for that day.