Bitter sweet

After being in the hospital for 9 days (including 6 of them after giving birth to my sweet little man at 31 weeks) due to high blood pressure they are letting me out today. But I have to leave my sweet boy at the nicu its been nice being right down the hall. How did you other moms deal?! I feel like I'm going to just lose it. I never thought after I gave birth I would be leaving the hospital without my baby 😢