Really upset😭

So my husband and I were planning for us to go to Missouri from Christmas, unfortunately we came short on money and we were only able to afford my ticket even though it was pretty pricy...He promised my parents he would at least try to get me to go home for the holidays. He explained to me that since we couldn't afford another $900 ticket then he would stay here and spend it with his family in which i understand bc we didn't have the money...
Fast forward to today- I leave tomorrow morning and I was able to find a ticket for $300...Which I can afford and pay it for it. I asked him to come with me bc this would be our first Christmas as a couple/married couple and I couldn't imagine spending it without him..He said no because he had already told him parents that he was going to go over to their house. I'm trying everything I can to get him to come with me. But his first excuse was money and now it's bc he already has plans. I'm literally bawling my eyes out..and I shouldn't it's really not worthy of crying about it but my pregnancy has me so emotional..I just want him to come with me. I can't imagine our first Christmas with out him. Am I being selfish??
UPDATE*
He sees his parents every Sunday, but I definitely agree with what you girls are saying. Yes I'll be alright, just hurts that I can't be with him.. ☹️