happiness taken so quickly

On December 23rd I found out I was pregnant even had an ultrasound then after my appointment I went to the mall to do some last minute Christmas shopping so after walking around for a little bit i went to the bathroom to discover blood on my underwear 😞 It wasn't too heavy so I just shrugged it off with the worrying in the back of my mind. Went home and made a present for my fiancé to tell him I'm pregnant. I got a cute box and put a broncos onesie in it along with my confirmation paper and ultrasound. So we met up with his friends later that night and I gave him the box, he was so happy! I even have a video.. so we go home after a few hours and go to bed. Then when we woke up my underwear were covered with blood so we decided to go to the ER. They drew my blood and then spread me open and said there is tissue along with my blood.. doctor said we were in the early stages of a miscarriage 😭 my heart shattered the look on my fiancé face was heartbreaking.. so they decided to take me back for an ultrasound and when I went to empty my bladder for the ultrasound I seen on my pad the most heartbreaking thing a mom could ever see 😭 I told my nurse but she didn't seem to care at all.. so there was nothing I could do.. we went along with the ultrasound then went back to the room.. they said I could get dressed and they will come back. Doctor came back and gave me my discharge papers and a script for hydros to "ease my pain".... what about the pain in my heart?.. my second baby is in heaven now 😞 but I'm being selfish and want that baby to be growing in my stomach! Why do these things happen?..