my life with preseed 😕

This is my life with preseed (I normally throw them out but kept them this time for this dramatic pic lol) I've been using it now for 4 cycles. Im deeply considering giving up on it. Well giving up all together I must admit not using opks has helped relieve a lot of stress this month but I'm still stressing out about it. I've waited so long to have another baby due to me being a teen mom. It's driving me so crazy how I could mistakingly get pregnant at such a very young age and now when I really want it I can't. I feel crazy with all this ttc stuff and I know I'm driving him crazy. During my fertile window I'm harassing him to Baby Dance to the point of almost tears if he's "to tired" or something else. How are you ladies dealing with this? How many of you are using preseed? And how many cycles?