Not Breastfeeding...

I am leaning towards not breastfeeding this time around (please no lectures or judgmental comments) with my first it was a nightmare to get her to breastfeed, I was not enjoying my first few weeks with her I was stressed out about her not getting enough etc. my nipples were so chapped and bloody my breast actually got infected. I feel there is such a stigma associated when formula feeding but after 4months of trying to
Push through breastfeeding her we
Decided to bottle/formula feed completely and it was the best decision we made for our family. This time around I think I am going straight to bottle feeding bc I want to enjoy this moment. Any mothers choosing formula/bottle feeding as well? I am nervous that the hospital nurses are going to judge me.