Sex toys

I'm 18 and I'm virgin but I love masturbation and I like discovering my body and what I like by myself but I want to buy a sex toy, the thing is that I'm a little bit shy and I think that I will be embarassed if I enter in a sex shop... Also I don't want to buy it online bc I still live with my parents and I don't want them to notice it.
😭😭😭 Any advice?
Also I don't know what to buy bc I am virgin AF and of course I've never had penis action so I think that a dildo may hurt me😭😭 I'm so confused, please help