Ttc after miscarriage -rant/questions

I don't know if it is even worth it to me to try right now. When we conceived in may, we're weren't even actively trying, we just ended up having our (once a month fun) on the exact right day.

Now, six months after loosing that baby, I'm an emotional wreck and hubby says, " I thought you were over that."

I am so frustrated I could scream!

Ttc is not working, month after month, and hubby does not fathom the fact that was OUR CHILD not just some - thing I lost. Yes, I miss baby, and yes I am acutely aware of the baby's due date coming up the Saturday before Valentines, and yes I am holding back crying as I write this.

Anyone know how I can get it across to hubby how much our baby meant and still means? Because I am out of words...

Not to hardly mention ttc...