starting to feel overwhelmed

For the last month I have been going to OB appts every Tuesday and Friday. My blood pressure and protein level have both been elevated. I took my most recent 24 hour urine take in yesterday.. only for the lab to get my container mixed with someone else's.. & they don't know which one but one was elevated.. so they had a courier bring me another container to do today that I have to take in tomorrow and they want me to call after 30 minutes of bringing it in.. if they don't call me first to get the results. I'm 37 weeks & 3 days.. and I'm afraid in the next week or so my dr is going to want to deliver. I'm scheduled for a csection on February 3rd but I don't think I'm going to make it. On top of that my papaw is in the hospital on life support and I fear he's already gone. He's been on life support since Saturday. Hubby is two hours away for work for training. I'm afraid if my dr does deliver early that she will end up in nicu.. I had my son at 40 weeks and he ended up in nicu for 6 days and I missed the first 12 hours of his life. I'm just ranting and hoping things go a little smoother this time.. at this point in my head I'm not sure if I'll be having a baby or attending a funeral first 😔