I think I need help😪

I feel like crap right now, like I mentioned before it's been a few days since my two month old baby refuses to eat, he won't want to latch on the nipple, first it was just around this time, but today was all day ! I literally cried all day today, I'm not a bad person, before my baby was born I wanted him in my arms so bad and now that he is here I yelled at him when he won't stop crying, a few days ago I smacked him on the leg not hard but I did, and today a lilttle bit ago I grabbed him really mad and yelled at him, he looked at me so scared and that broke my heart ! I know I shouldn't of done that but I get so stressed out when I don't know what's wrong and what to do😪 I also let him cried and not picking him up today. I feel like everything is happening to me, first it was my postpartum rash I got it went away and now it's back😪 then I get a plugged duct which is not getting any better and my Breast is all red and sore now😪 and now my baby doesn't wanna eat😪 what else can happen to me ?! Am I the only one alone out here who is going through all this😪😪😪