37 weeks not dilated at all and pissed at the world 😢😠😩😣 (rant ahead..)

Had my second cervix check yesterday and.. nothing. It's thinning and softer but not dilated at all. I know that's no true indication of when labor will start but it wasn't exactly what I wanted to hear either (how about "you're gonna have this baby tonight!"? 🙄)

So I decided to stop at mc Donald's on my way home. It was one of those that has two drive thru order lines. I finished my order first and then the lady in the other side CUT ME! I was seriously in a rage. And then come to find out she only ordered a Coke!! Through the drive thru! ARRRRGH! So I was already pissed.. and then they gave me medium fries with my large meal. I seriously thought my head was gonna pop right off. Had to waddle my big pregnant body inside. They gave me a large fries (so now I had 10 nuggets, medium fries, AND large fries..) went home, cried a little, and then ate them all 😖

On top of all this, my fiance is having health issues that are scaring the daylights out of me. I'm terrified that he's gonna die. It's not likely by any means, but the possibility alone is wearing on me.

Work sucks lately. They never have anything for me to do. I appreciate them keeping me when I'm clearly not needed.. but I'm just sick of it. They had me go around to each class one day to physically tell teachers an announcement.. instead of using the intercom system.. I could be doing so much (napping) at home. The paycheck is important but I'm losing my mind. I want to relax 😣

Anyway.. rant over. I will post my beautiful daughter's ultrasound pics in a different thread bc she is the only good thing happening lately. I'm obviously so ready to meet her. 20 days.