A little disappointed

So me and my SO had a some what of a pregnancy scare he thought i was pregnant but i thought i wasnt so i just took a test and i was right im not so you would think i would happy about the situation considering me and him both said we didnt want kids but for some reason a part of me is a little disappointed that it came back negative i dont know why exactly ughhh its like do i want kids or no especially because i love him so much i get all of these mixed emotions about it