Rainbow baby 👼

When I was 18 I miscarried my first baby, It tore me apart.. the guy I was with at the time left me when he found out I was pregnant and only came back after I miscarried. I loved him so much I took him back, I fell pregnant again when I was 19 but sadly history repeated itself and I lost my rainbow baby; he left too. 
I'm now 21, my babies are all I think about.. day in day out. It's been nearly 2 years since I lost my last baby 02.03.15 and I am single, I am so empty and numb. All I want is to have a baby
Is it selfish to do it alone? 💙💜