thoughts?

So last Thursday I found out I was pregnant, just by taking a test for being a few days late thinking it would show negative but "Surprise! You got a little person starting to grow in you!" I was very shocked as I didn't think that this would be possible as I was on the pill. My boyfriend and I both know it's not the right time and neither one of us wants to terminate this pregnancy but we both know it's for the best. Since I'm not really wanting it to end is it bad that I want to wait a while longer to end it? I want to be able to experience as much as I can before I have to say goodbye..is that bad? And is it also bad that I'm tryin to convince my boyfriend that we can make this work? Ugh I don't know how to feel about any of this..😔