Breakdown 😔

Had an official breakdown today...I'm 6 weeks and finally told my husband about my feelings about this pregnancy. I know it's super early and hormones are crazy and I'm sure that's why I'm not feeling excited. I feel like crap saying that because I know there are so many women who would die to be 6 weeks pregnant right now. I'm also feeling very scared about what my moms reaction is going to be and I've been at home alone all week because my job starts Monday and hubby leaves for work at 445am and gets home around 6. I'm too tired and sick to do housework or even get up and shower so I feel disgusting and all of that just came crashing down today....I'm feeling low. Just needed to vent ☹️ Hoping these feelings pass soon