He's just bashing out on me

And it makes me very sad so I came to my moms and I've spent a day here and she was like we're dropping you off at your dads and I started crying and crying lately I've felt so depressed and I hate it like my friends at school don't like me and I can't join another friend group cuz there like eww no I've been very stressed with my grades Latley and my dad is making feel even more like shit with how he treats me and I just feel like I'd be better off dead... I've been crying for an hour straight and I just need some positive words or whatever but I just hate this sadness