I always had an idea of what being pregnant would be like but what I've actually gone through is totally different. I've wanted to be a mom since I was like 10 years old. I've worked in daycares since I was 16 and I'm now 25 yrs old and 34 weeks pregnant and I just don't feel connected. I was so excited when I got pregnant and for the first few months I was as well but now I just feel...nothing. It's so hard to explain. I never really talk to her, it's very rare and it's usually only when she moves. I never play her music, read her books, etc all the stuff I've seen other people do when pregnant. My mom and boyfriend rub my stomach and talk to her everyday so I feel like 'she's in my body why aren't I doing that'? I love getting her stuff together and buying her clothes and talking about her to people so I'm just confused. I don't know what she looks like and I think that is a big part of why I'm feeling this way. Does she look like me, does she look like her dad, will she have a ton of hair or no hair at all, will she be chunky or tiny? I'm just so unsure of who she is and I just want to know. Did anyone else ever feel this way? I feel like a horrible person for not being 100% connected right now.