I had to say goodbye to my best friend today. My 8 year old chihuahua had gotten pretty sick in the last 2 weeks. I held out hope maybe she would pull through but I had a pit in my stomach and a feeling that this was it for her. We went to the vet...lab work told us she was very ill and there was no chance of survival without hospitalization and intensive 24 hour care.....and even with that there was no guarantee she would rally and pull through. My poor baby was diabetic and we didn't know it, she had ketoacidosis, pancreatitis and her kidneys were shutting down. I held her as she was put to sleep today.

She was my a baby before I had babies. When I struggles to conceive she was there. I am so drained and have cried so much the past 2 days. Will I ever stop feeling guilty for ending her life even though I know it was the best decision for her?