breastfeeding

Since I found out I was pregnant, my plan was to try breastfeeding. If it didn't work out, or was too much, I would switch to pumping or formula. Not a big deal. I believe that fed is best. My little girl is 10 days old and once we figured out the proper latch, breastfeeding has been going well. She's an easy baby, not very fussy, but let's me know when she's hungry. She nurses well, but tends to fall asleep while nursing. Altogether, though, there aren't any signs that she's not getting enough to eat. Except for the fact that she's not gaining weight. We saw a lactation specialist this morning and she confirmed that Addie has lost a little weight since the beginning of the week and is getting less that half of what she should be each time she nurses. So now it's time to start pumping and supplementing with formula. Which I really don't mind. But, being a hormonal first time mom, I cried all the way home. It makes me feel like I'm not being a good mom because my body isn't giving her enough to eat. I guess the point of the story is that no one really tells you how emotionally involved you get while breastfeeding. Having a baby attached to your boob all day is one challenge, but being told you're baby is not getting what she needs is a whole other battle. I guess we just gotta take it one day at a time. And hopefully I will eventually stop crying 😭