Minor refusing treatment (explained more)

I realize that I was a bit too vague with the post I made a few hours ago. I have severe depression and was sent to an inpatient hospital last year from a near suicide attempt (I was planning on overdosing). I am 13 (parents know I have app, yes I am young I am aware). I am being forced to take antidepressants. I self harm. I have for a year. I have suicidal thoughts and severe derealization. Also a year. I live in Wisconsin. I despise the feeling I get being on medication, it is effective and makes me less depressed but it doesn't feel like me and I hate it. Do I have any say in whether I take this or not? I tried to stop without asking but I got caught today. People have told me it's just the depression talking, but I want to try and heal in my own and I don't like medication at all. I don't mind if others take it, i just don't like taking it personally. I got no say and as soon as my parents found out I was suicidal I was put on medication and was supposed to take it ever since. I turn 14 on May 2nd. I honestly don't want to take it.. is there anything I can do to convince my parents I'm fine without it? I will still self harm but I won't try and kill myself (it's a complicated story but long story short it would cause a chain of suicides, a dozen people). Thanks.