Speculum fear

I guess is kinda late to complain about pain and fear. I'm 28 weeks pregnant. I had 3 pap smears in my life, and in every one of them I cried and screamed every time the speculum went it.

Idk what to do. That thing is tiny comparing the baby's head. I tried to relax but is impossible, and I just feel so embarrassed every time.

Any advice?