This darn TWW is killing me im going mad!!!

I'm now after this post going to get off here and try to relax.. Going to clean the house and do stuff I need to get done I'm ADHD and over analyze everything!!! Since doc took me off my meds its gotten way worse.. I never thought I would become this stereotype.. But would you look at me here I am.. Freaking out over every little darn thing probably tricking my self in to more than what's going on.. But for real on a real note my BBS hurt so darn bad cramping before even close to time I'm tired then over think it then stay up all night on glow driving my self mad!! Like the Mad Hatter.. I don't wanna be this way don't know how to stop my self... Ugh... Then I think wow I don't need a baby I'm mad I need help I need to be wipping walls in an insane asylum. Like really I've never thought I could drive my self to this point of insanity.. Its becoming to the point sex is like a choir and timing.. I've tried to understand it all to the point I'm so confused!! Any one else feel like me!! At times I'm starting to think I'm a bit of a phyco and it stayed hidden till TTC.. Is it time I talk to my doctor about this or is this normal with TTC???