Uuuh only God knows how much am fearing to test!!!am sorry but I become negative towards this,I wish I could prove my evil thoughts wrong,I want to be positive,that I can also have this bfp.

My minds convinces me how much it will take long for me to conceive, I hate this feeling.

One day I called my sister in law and jokingly she told me" am tired of you calling me sister in law,I want to be called Aunt ...very soon" culturally some families here will take you as a failure when you fail to conceive especially the in laws.

A lot have failed in my childhood it hurts to see that my body is tending to let me down too,something it should do on its own.

Ladies I wonder why things are always not on my table at the right point I need them,am 9 dpo but will never test though I feel like,whenever I test AF shows up few hours later , am sorry for TMI but this is where I can feel free to share this hell am going through. Thanks ladies baby dust to all of is I should say!